I want to start off by saying this: I will never forget you, but I have chosen to forgive you. I forgive you boys. I forgive you Officer. I forgive you Detective. I forgive you DA’s office. I really had a hard time deciphering what happened on that night in July; what was real, and what had my mind unintentionally labeled as an excuse. So I did what any other rational person would do; talk about it. About a week later, I talked to my sister, and then a close friend, and they

Do you ever find yourself doing the same things again and again, where eventually it becomes a habit? (I’ve heard it takes 21 days to break/start a habit. Unfortunately for me, 21 days is more like 1.5 years, and no, I haven’t yet broke it.) Yeah, me too. To be completely transparent, that’s relationships for me. I “think” I’m trying something new, something that will be better and finally work for me. But then, I fall back into the repeat cycle, and everything turns to crap